Wednesday, 30 June 2010
[Disclaimer: Anything I say in this blog cannot be used against me in a face to face encounter, as I am experiencing a short moment of severe stressed-induced rage.]
I can't always do everything, or be responsible for everyone, or keep track of everything, or fix everything. I have a limit and I have reached it.
If you want my help, you have to meet me half way. You can't just expect me to bend over backwards just because you don't feel like applying effort.
If you want me to do everything for you, don't complain when I don't do it EXACTLY how you super-secretly wanted me to. Just SMILE, say THANK YOU, and walk your COMPLAINING ass away. You automatically lose the rights to complain about what I have done when you did not do ANYTHING. Also, LEARN TO LISTEN WITHOUT INTERRUPTING. PEOPLE HATE BEING INTERRUPTED.
If you want me to take you seriously, you need to stop being such a floozy. I get it, you're really cool, and you party, and everyone likes you, right? No. You're annoying. Stop being a mom in your mid forties who acts like a bimbo in her early twenties. And don't say "age is just a number", because there is a significant difference between staying young and letting yourself go. Some pull it off with class, but you don't. So stop.
If you want me to go to college, and you tell me before I start that you're helping me pay for it, don't freak out on me when you have to file for a loan because the federal loan offered is not a STUDENT loan, it is a PARENT loan. I cannot change my qualifications. Just get over it. I am taking out a loan too. I am also putting forth A LOT of effort to get a piece of paper with my name on it. MOVE ON. FILL OUT THE PAPER. AND STOP GIVING ME A GUILT TRIP.
If you want to know why no one is talking to you, ASK THEM. I don't know! But please don't act like you are there, and we are ignoring you. It's not exactly like you've always been very involved in our lives either. I barely have a moment to keep in touch with those in the same zip code as me whom I am very close with, let alone those halfway across the country whom I don't know very well. I am sorry to be so blunt about this, but it is the truth. Just because we have busy lives does not mean we do not care, we just aren't the love confessing, small talking, life updating types. We also don't have the time or money to hop on a plane and come to visit. If you want to visit, by all means, you know where we live as well. Just because I am the most accessible, does not mean that I have all of the answers. So please stop putting guilt on me for things and people which are not in my control.
I apologize for being so blunt, but it has been so long since I wrote an angry blog, and it really makes me feel a lot better. I always tell the whole truth in my blogs, as opposed to the non-blunt version in person. I think my blogging hiatus has been taking a toll on my mental health.